25..im 25..does number means anything, or is it just a number..did I learn anything out of these 25 years of living…one thing for sure..I am learning , everything in life is unpredictable..whatever it is, just be ready..
In early teens..I am the fat girl, not that smart. bit geeky, sometimes I would rather spend my time in library and reads..I love goofing around..im also a bit of tomboy..my curly and frizzy hair always cause me 2 hours to make it straight..thank GOD there a lot of solutions for that nowadays..I’m invisible in school..non of the boys I admired notice me..you know it’s high school when all you want is to be wanted..playing truant and failing in biology and chemistry…seems to be my favourite… Tae Kwan Do is the only thing that I like most about school..
Still fresh in my memory, when mum was terribly sick till she cannot do anything..and dad was not around.. he’s actually working offshore …. at 14 I have to play role in the family to do things..organize..woke up early in the morning to prepare breakfast..doin house chores..takin trip to the market on weekend for the next meal ..dealin with my mum tantrums, I understands sick people are sensitive and emotional..the mood swing is terrible sometimes..those days was like a test to our family…but as time passed by our bond has become stronger as we learn to cherish and love each other even more..
After finish high school..for the first time I’ve been away from family and moved to the city..further my studies in college, living in a dorm with other students..It’s an exposure for another phase of life..slowly my tomboyish kinda style faded…’in’ with the girlie girl but in a minimal way...with the help from my good friends I manage to lose my weights..learning grooming from them..Polish up my communication skills no more the shy me..from here also I got my exposure to the night life…funny things is I learn more about boys..also not to mention the issue ..Love VS Sex..but it’s all depends to both party..If you think you are ready & comfortable with the other person..no more issue should arise…keep in mind safety first….I don’t judge people..It’s not my place to judge..As I am no perfect..
Betrayal,broken heart,happy,sad,crazy(remind me of the most stupidest thing ever; my friend brother really need a national flag to bring over to school,but he inform my fren quite late,so most of the shop were closed and we cannot find any shop sellin the flag..damn..then..idea.ting..ting..!!!.we go to the hospital parking lot and take the flag from other people car..shit right…that was on national day eve..funny thing is while driving out from the parking lot..we have a tyre puncture problem..serves us right..hahaha)stupid moment….I would never trade anything for that ...
I may look strong on the outside but inside..I am a child..im fragile..I easily broke to pieces..but, as time goes on I learned that time can heal almost everything tho it will scar..but we learn to move on and take everything as a lesson..
Now I realize there are much bigger thing in life..at least I know what I want now..age is only a number nothing more…what inside you is more important..how you act and think in dealing with life uncertainties and endless possibility..what makes the number count..
With the future remain unwritten..who I am tomorrow, would I know?...maybe..but what I am today is the moulding from the past that shape me..im like a chameleon but don’t get me wrong I am mo hypocrite..
I’m glad for all the risks I took before..tho it cost my heart..yes it’s still have scar but you see I am slowly healing when you reach your hand for me, show at least a little care..my heart will grow a wing of happiness.. I choose to dance and sing to the soundtrack of life…..
“ Remember Life is short, break the rules,
Forgive quickly, kiss slowly,
Love truly, laugh uncontrollably and
Never regret anything that made you smile…..
Btw, my 25th birthday fall on Ash wednesday (25th February also,cool coincidence)
Maybe I will gave up pork..these time around..
Happy 25 years younger.......
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